今天很累。昨天发生了惊天动地的事情，今天忙得要死。忙做office girl。印刷整十千张纸，手都被纸割得不像样，很痛。还要做没有钱的OT。以为忙了整天可以见他一面，到头来得到的是一场空。我觉得我自己很笨。笨到没有人有。人家都不把我放在眼里了为什么我还那么执著。

他人很好。可是感觉不对了。心不在了，没有用。我的心好像被淘空了，需要时间找回。

昨天在生死一瞬间，我还是放不下。但是今天深思熟虑后，觉得好像释怀了。淡然……

for almost one month, i am still unable to truly face myself with the reality standing in front of me.

each & every time i open the google chrome browser, i've already set it to automatically open few pages i've added in the settings. for the 3 weeks, i don't even dare to open the browser because i feel pressured to open due to the drastic drop of my blog statistics & also all the memories i've had with these tabs, including gmail which we love to chat there, FB which there are a lot of photos with memories, and blog with even more stories & memories we've recorded down throughout the 2 years.

i told myself not to cry & i did it. i am able to swallow back all the tears at the moment. i told myself to be rational.

this is also the first time i've sick for almost one month & have not recovered. crying in the dream, fearing in both the conscious & subconscious minds, it's trauma. i don't know whether i should express my feeling here but seriously, the impact is far more worse & horrible than what i expected.

i've been so emo until i hate myself so much. may be it's the matter of time. it is...

it has been some time since i last blog. after 9 days, finally i am able to write something here.

something is happened in my life that makes me not able, or should i say i've lost my courage to blog. i scared to write even one word here.

the incident that happened has left me a deep trauma which i don't think i can let it go in a short period of time. also, this incident will also affect my life later, to get married or not, or even, to find another boyfriend or not. i have lost all my confidence within seconds, and, i've lost trust on almost everything. i see things from the bad sites and i couldn't think of one good thing in my mind since the incident happened. this blog has also a lot of memory that we have had last time. i don't even dare to access my blog to see a single word or even the URL of this blog.

things were just too good to be ended. life is just so unfair & we have to go through things like this. but, i am learning and growing. i ...........

Yup!!! Another century long I didn't blog. Two reasons. 1: I am busy with work. 2. I am sick. As for how I get sick, please refer here.

On Sunday I sick, Monday I was on MC leave, Tue & Wed I was working (thought I can handle it but apparently I couldn't, hence another leave today). My job scope is easy; to sit in the car for 8 hours and meeting people (lecturers, post grad studs, profs & docs) in UM, UPM, MARDI, CABI, MPOB, Jabatan Pertanian and so forth la.

That's all. But due to my job requires a lot of talking (as a product executive), so my sick can't recover in a very short time. Hence, I kepala pening.

So, that's all. I know it's lame. kthxbai. Yah yah, I know my life is boring.......

How to get sick in 6 days.

1. Monday - Curry Rice (with loads of curry) @ Mamak, Jalan PJU 10/10B
2. Tuesday - Chicken Rice (I finished the whole plate of chili sauce) @ Chicken Rice Shop, Jalan PJU 10/10B
3. Wednesday - Bah Kut Teh (I finished the whole plate of chili paddy) @ Berkeley, Klang
4. Thursday - Banana Leaf Rice (I finished the whole bowl of curry with the full with rempah spicy curry rice) @ Legend's, Serdang
5. Friday - Oh jian [Fried oyster] (I finished all the chili sauces & fried oyster is very oily & heaty) @ Hawker Stall, Penang
6. Saturday - Durian Meal (including Durian puff, durian spring roll, durian pao, durian pancake), Thailand cuisine (which spicy like no tomorrow with its unlimited chili paddy in the rice) @ Queensbay Mall, Bayan Lepas, Penang
7. Sunday - I am sick with sore throat, headache, fever, coughing and inability to converse T______T

BEEP BEEP!

Hi friends.... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... I wasn't able to online yesterday cause the wi-fi service of the hotel bit retarded T______________T

Anyways, I just came back from Penang Island a moment ago, and guess what? I IZ EFFING SICK!!! I guess I will be taking an MC leave tomorrow  T____________T I can't talk, headache, throat swelling like WHAT!?

The causes of why I sick was because I everyday run in & out since last 28th Oct till today. And if without sick, I might need to continue until 12th Nov only I can have proper rest. But it seems like my body condition doesn't allow me to do so. Therefore, I AM CONPIRM GOING TO LEAVE TOMORROW!!! T_______________T

Also the sparks of this sick is due to my durian meal yesterday morning. FML max. I had durian pao, durian spring roll, durian pancake, durian puff all together. Ask me die or not? DIED!!!!

Even though I am offing tomorrow but there ares still tones of things for me to do...

1. Go Sunway Pyramid for my irritating HTC Aria. Something is wrong with the screen. FML. (i think i got the faulty unit lors!!)
2. To capture a formal photo @ don't know where.
3. To call BonusLink to redeem my points cause my PIN was locked cause I forgot the password. LAME!!!!

Oh yeah, the Penang trip, I drove almost 90% of it. Lolz.. I think 95% lars. Then, things I bought are a pillow & bolster. Cause it's having promotion @ Queensbay mall HAHHAAHHAHA!!

You know what? I've been keeping fit for the past two weeks & 3kg have gone but 3 days in Penang gained everything back!!! FML FML FML FML FML!!!

K, I don't know what I should I talk about now cause my brain so blur now & I'm fever, you know. @@ 

dahhhhhhhhhh...

Happy Deepavali.

kthxbai.

Oh! The warmest thing is I'm able to meet up with Kari for like 10 minutes? lolz.. Feel so warm. Fahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ♥v♥

I am supposed to blog today!!!!! but........

But because I woke up at 4.15 am today for my journey up to the north - Penang!!!

And I drove for the 80% of the day so I wanna (NEED TO!!!) rest now.

I love you!! AND YOU TOO!!!!

Catch me back tomorrow =D

Eh? what's that?

I've got my first salary!!!! Around 150 MYR lolz... It's for the three days working I had few days ago ^^

Today I talked a lot to the boss, cause 2 out of 7 of human in the office take leave and the other 3 went out for stuffs so the office has only me, the boss together with the admin. So, for the entire whole 9 hours, I was talking to the boss like no tomorrow.

We say about how is he gonna allocate me or so. How flexible the company is, my own email, name card, company hand phone & company laptop I am getting very soon. I've never ever thought the company can be as flexible as this & at the same time you can learn thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much. You can learn as much as you can! As for now, what they can gimme & lemme know is that's all. So from this moment onwards, I've to read references & listing products as much as I can & if possible to remember each and one of them (which is not that possible lah).

So this is one of the product I am selling, the only & solely odd design micropipette and our company is the SOLE distributer! COOL MAX!!! And of course it looks weird also! But it's so much better than what I was using for past 4 years!!!!!!!!!

Ok, now I've a problem. Previously, I have one phone with me which is under Maxis, then after I met Kari, I have another one under Celcom, then just few days ago, for working purposes, I got myself a smartphone HTC Aria under DiGi & NOW!!! the company has gave me another phone. What-should-i-do-now?

*scratch head*

Think of it later. I need to rest until 930pm and start reading for company's stuff dee.

I so in love with my job!! Hope my friends have found job or supervisors for their master studies.

Oh yeah, I've just received a letter from UTAR officially tells me that I have completed my studies. FML I am damn happy with it. It's my effort after 16 years of studies life.

Kthxbai~

New chapter in my life.

Hi friends, it has been a while since I last blog. Particularly it's due to the new full time permanent work I am engaged with. Yes, I have found my desired career after a month I finished my final exam. I went to the interview during study week. And I really think it's necessary to do that cause I've already starting to count ants in my house a few days ago. 

So luckily, I've engaged to work selling sciences (particularly microbiology) equipments imported from the States under a local company.

It was so surprised that the company is unexpectedly flexible, I love the company structure it's like a small family. Guess what? The personnel so far includes the boss it's only SEVEN human in the office everyday!! Hyper love it!

Anyhow I am still very new in the society trying to me like a dry sponge to absorb every single GOOD thing in the society as fast as I can but of course to make sure I don't fall down first la lol.

I just came back from Sunday work @ Times Square cause having Bio1Conference there. I learned something also. After so many years (1 year) I did not take public transport (KTM) I still feel the same (actually worse) disappointment wit'em. Oh and I found one aunty asked me for RM 2 and I didn't give her cause I am in a rush I guiltiness filled up my brain & stayed till now T___________T

Back to my work, yes I am still learning, even though I no need to take exam anymore but sciences can never get rid of reading. So I still have a lot to read but to read in a much mature way!

And I am officially start working tomorrow. And it's NOVEMBER!!! Means my blogniversary is coming soon!! Three years blogging experience is average only. HA!! A dull after excitement of blogniversary. November is a good start! After a 2 to 3 months of probation I'll be a official worker in the January 2011!! Thanks for my well planning & little unforeseen circumstances given the the God! 

Sankiu everybody!! Sankiu!!! I'm signing off to read thesis now. My lovely man's thesis.

HAPPY NOVEMBER!!!! HAPPIER YEAR END SALE!!!

My Uniquely Singapore Trip! [part II - Universal Studio]

As I promised earlier, this is my PLAY-LIKE-A-KID entry!!! Nyahahahhaa.. I was so excited with HTC Aria I bought myself yesterday!!! Almost forgot this entry cause in deep love with my Aria. He's not that hard to understand only =D

Back to the entry!

I went to the friends' high school for breakfast!!

That was the best meal I had during the journey! And it's cheapest. Cheap like MAD!!!! [I looked bit bengkak cause just woke up]

Ok, we took bus to Resort World Sentosa. From the Bugis bus station, we took a taxi to I forgot where (very cheap only SGD 6 around that) then we waited for Resort's bus SGD 2 unlimited ride!

And TADAH~~~

The place they dropped us is le Casino.

We straight went to the Universal Studio cause earlier the bus to bring us to the Bugis station was late for almost an hour for NO REASON!! Scroll down for the bad impression I've towards Singapore =X

Too many random people there, so just focus on the colorful part =D

We were discussing stuffs (how to invade the Studio).

We're able reach Resort World Sentosa with cable car also!

Ticket Price: SGD 66 (adult)
includes SGD 5 for meal & SGD 5 for souvenir NICEST!!

If you go during holiday or peak period, you are not able to finish playing all those in one day. But luckily I went there during normal low season & we are able to make good management & timing so we're able to do it!! ♥♥

We first put unnecessarily stuffs into locker! Just beside the entrance.

They charged accordingly to the hour used. For unlimited, SGD 10.

♥

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! We're here!!!

Everything is so solid. I was so happy once I entered. Heh heh heh..

They've photographer to take picture for us. NICEST!

Can take twice NICEST-EST!!

A lot of restaurants & mercantile shops in it.

I love shopping there cause everything was so cute!!

We were also get to see many highly demanded to be seen characters like Sherk & Fiona with some others (scroll down for more).

Far Far Awayayayayayayayayayayay~~

& suddenly he wanna do big business so me and another friend (Desmond) have to wait for him =X

Then after the big business he complained doing business there is pressured cause the cleaner keep waiting outside the toilet to clean. Gosh.. I encountered that too in Genting Highland FTL. Really got people in it you still wanna wait in fronta the toilet for what? Better smelling for the 'thing' we done? Don't und!

While waiting, I was capturing photos around.

The map of Universal Studio (about to type Universal Traveler =.=)

My fav in this whole big studio is 1. GINGER MAN!! 2. PENGUIN!!!

It is soon to be MINE!!! Nyahahahahahha~

The beverages they selling also very unique I love LOLZ!

Just ignore if you want.

We went to the 4D Shrek show!! Effing fun!! HHAHAHHAH!!

Prior the show, we were briefed outside for 15 minutes.

Ignore the perverted one, he is mine.

Next, Jurassic Park - Waterworld.

Kinda lame.

Just to see people get wet & the boom bi ba boom scenes with fire crackers lolz!!!

And some action like this.

Booming scene (not that Selina one)

Next, still Jurassic Park but another game. This is effing cool but coolest is .... (please scroll down)

Another game at Jurassic Park.

This game is to test your luck.

If you're suey, you'll get wet like WHAT!! HAHHA!! Second coolest!! (Coolest still behind!)

Then we quickly go for lunch with the voucher given.

See! I'm half wet, he is FULLY wet. HAHAHAHHAHA!!

Egypt.

The coolest game IZ HERE!!! OMFG!!! It was so cool you must go yourself. It's a underground roller coaster in a dark condition you can see NOTHING in there & the roller coaster go up down back & forward FOL!!

Ignore me.

Then after all the harsh games...

just taking pictures around.

lolx..

Then ngam ngam there is a show in theater.

It was only few minutes more we managed to catch the last show!

Done! Taking picture around before the studio is shut down.

& we managed to catch this show!!! We run like what for this lolz..

Seeing donkey singing. We were just there for air-cond & relax after whole day of over-hyper-activities.

Last photo in the Studio.

candylicious outside the Studio. We didn't enter due to insufficient time.

Night scenes.

That's the end of my Uniquely Singapore Trip!

Okay, time for bad things. Things I DON'T LIKE about Singapore.

1. This is really piss me off. I know SG water very precious but I could hardly find a toilet with water hose in it.
2. The bus service I encountered (even though it's still waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay much better then Malaysia's.
3. That's all.
4. Yes, that's all. LOL!!

They are good. One thing I need to give them a compliment. Regardless of you're staying in the hotel/resorts or not, anything you ask the receptionist of the hotel, they will answer you sincerely without showing beh song face!! THUMBS UP x 7

Okay, i've no mood for jokes now cause there is new chapter in my life tomorrow. kinda gan jiong, but not gan jiong then when i entering primary school la =X

ok. I'll be off from home 12 hour per day for work. T_______T this is challenging for me.

I'll be working continuously for 8 days & traveling to Penang for 3 days & continue working for 5 days. For 17 days, I wish I can survive. Do stay connected with me!!!!!!!!!

wo ai ni~~~