why am i in a condition like this?

Current condition:

Messy & Floating in the ocean feel.

Probably the last time for Cameron.

Just came back from the Genting Highland moment ago. Tiring journey. Had fun, too.

Not sure whether I am gonna blog about it. I am gonna busy with job interviews. Fingers-crossed*

Alright, back to the title. I am bit emo here cause Kari lost his RM 50 with RM 17.60 of KFC vouchers. Sad.

Ok, back to the title again, the Cameron trip.

The view outside the room. 

The view inside the room.

It's very messi I know. That is my style okay. I am supposed to do my thesis wan lol.

Can't believe it. I did nothing at all, except for eating. Cause not enough time to die.

I also don't know what was he doing. We both were busy surfing net I guess. He tried to do his FYP statistic test. And finally he got it. But don't know what's their problem, he failed, again, and have to redo. FHL.

Mostly in pink. Don't ask me why. I am emo nao!

Went to the whatever park.

Saw one ah pek walking around. LOL!

and I had this. Ok, it's lame entry I know. So do Cameron. Due to the people there are looking forward for the peak season coming SOON (next week the school holidays and Hari Raya), most of them closed for one week, I think. And that was the week I went. So I went there to surf net and avoid the hot weather from Kampar. YAY!! Ok, lame again. I know cause I am still emo-ing. Urgh... bai...

blardy dont see

Maha Maju, Kampar, Perak.

Subway, Pavilion, Kuala Lumpur.

mNj fitting room, AEON, BBT2, Klang, Selangor.

morning look after i washed my face.

morning look after i washed my face x 2

I can never been this fugly =.=

my table as messi  as usual [wtf i suddenly feel so hungry!!!!!!!!]

in my car heading to don't know where.

***********

Actually, I ain't fat.

see!

SEE!!! only because my thigh is HUGE!!!

and it makes me look fat!! ok la i am fat.

♥ my life being packed and busy~

I was back to Jalan Tepi Sungai, Teluk Pulai, Klang on Wednesday right after IPC (Interpersonal Communication) tutorial.

To service my Viva. Buhoo. It's one year old now and it has been accompanied me in 20300++ km all the while lolx... and after that also I don't think I'll have time to come back dee lors.

Yesterday was an interesting day. I did so many things in a day and I felt the sense of achievement greatly XD

#1 Car service. Changed the engine oil and oil filter. Yesterday only I know engine oil originally is not black one =X stupidme.

And I was being bitten by mosquitoes like 82734986234 times there.

Mosquito loves me. And I don't think I'd ever accept their love!!!

#2 Then went for car tire service. It wasn't plan but since I was free after the car service and since it's weekday I guessed it won't be much people so I went to service my car's alignment cause I realized something wrong when I was driving.

I thought it was just alignment problem manatau, have to spend another RM 70 to change the two tire supporters cause they were the one caused the main problem, not the alignment.

Then I got  not enough money so I called my mum and debt under her name first FML lol...

#3 While I was waiting there comes this Minicooper that made all of them in the tire shop so fascinated with it. [oh gawd I non stop sneezing Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz]

After that, I had to fetch my cousins back to home from school so I shunbian go AEON to shop for cosmetics and cut my hair [damn emo with the saloon FTL]

#4 very messi room.

Ya talk about the saloon. It was cutting edgez I went since I only wanna cut a bit but she [an old auntie i duno how she gets there, I mean, Cutting Edgez is under APT Ugh FTL.] she keeps cutting left then make my hair so thin then say right looked very thick now so cut more then cut left again FTL and she said oh you see looked so thin so cut right again to make it balance. Worst is she wanted to continue. GO DIE PLS!! But I stopped her cause something wrong with my sister's hair pity her she so kelian. If I didn't stop her, I am a botak now T________T

What happened to my sister was, she wanted to cut a bit to look tidier but FTL again, she made my sister's hair into boy hair cut. FTL FTL FTL!!!!! Sheebai aunties. Always think they are right. See the conversation we had.

ME: why cut until so short? I thought she said cut a bit only? [damn pissed off now even it happened yesterday]

Sheebai aunty: Yala cut a bit means ONE INCH or TWO INCHES ma. [ go die la don't stop the world turning] 

I looked at her hair and wanted to say "i cut your long hair for two inches then i tell you that is cut a bit lah kay" But I didn't and ...

ME: 1 inch and 2 inches is for long hair people don't you know that? [wanted to say you cut hair for so long you don't know wan?]

Sheebai aunty: Yameh only long hair can meh? [FHL la] Never mind la hair will grow wan [FHL x 84502394753094753094753098470394769386]

I thumbs up when she said that.

ME: ya, hair will grow ya ya. [ wanted to say I cut your hair and tell you hair will grow wan, should have done that ]

Gonna curse them kaokao in my subconscious mind. CAN OLD PEOPLE LISTEN!? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And due to another sheebai aunty keep making my hair thiner and thiner so I've a lot of short hairs are so outstanding now. Really FTL la. Sienz.

It was supposed to be a greater day. Cause before the shit happened me and sister enjoyed buying things around.

Out of topic a while. This is what I get from Project Alpha S2 contest. @@

An ADIDAS deodorant. 

That was MADE IN SPAIN!!!! Gonna give it to Kari cause he ♥s SPAIN so much, more than me.

Second item was this cap. That-is-all.

And before the saloon disaster as stated above, I went to Body Shop for my very first cosmetic set (eyes only la) in my entire life.

Pencil sharpener.

Mascara.

Pencil eyeliner.

Brow definer.

This glove to scrub my body. Didn't plant to buy it. It was bought to reach RM 150 to be a member there. I didn't wanna be a member also. But because you know, I soooooooo lazy to bath so may be this would help. LOL!

Eye make up remover.

Facial wipe to remove debris and make up as well. This is very useful!

And this mosquito remover. Not sure whether it helps. My legs now are full with 50 cents and 1 cent. T________________________________T

p.s. Okla papa I am attending the graduation ceremony la kay conpirm!

p.p.s. I used to like Cheesie very much. But not after seen her in Project Alpha S2 and her "ugly people are meant to be ugly" entry. No more with her  =)

UTAR Student Representative whack UTAR student!!!!

I mean, UTAR Student Representative whacked hit UTAR student.

Yes, right after Jorge Larrrionda being assassinated yesterday, UTAR has its own case.

Navindran, the one who whack hit people.
Race: Indian
Status: Currect SRC Faculty Representative












[Source: J-on-news.blogspot.com]

The one being hit, Lee with his wound.
Race: Chinese
Status: Carrying swollen chin.












[Source: J-on-news.blogspot.com]

According to Kong, one of my friend from Chemistry course, said that this is some kinda Bollywood show in UTAR, makes me XD XD XD

Another one Malaysia's culture after the BHP petrol case and young man died during marathon in KL!

Two different people with two different races.
Two different versions of explanations.
Who is right and who is wrong.
The answer is in your hands.

wtf sound so like "who wants to be a millionaire".

Anyways back to the topic.

These two Homo sapiens were actually having a post-mortem meeting for their event named "1Malaysia Food Festival" (sound so ironic cause they weren't that 1Malaysia only lo)


Then, during the post-mortem, some dissatisfaction of this and that was happened. And I am going to write in 2 versions. One from Navindran's view and one from Lee's view.

Navindran's View:

When it was Lee's turn to receive feedback from committee, he refused to admit his mistakes and scold vulgar words and leave the meeting. Navindran chased him and asked him to return to the committees and apologize. Lee started to shout "POLICE" when Navindran is approching him. Navindran tried to pull Lee and Lee continued shout "POLICE", so (here comes the interesting point) Navindran was so panicked so he hit Lee.

He then claimed that his act was just for self-defense. (Ya, self-defensing from hearing Lee shouting "POLICE" interesting!!!)

Lee's View:

After the argument (there is no vulgar words thing in this version), he and the girlfriend left and heading to the car. And according to Lee, he SUDDENLY (I do not know how sudden it was but HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!) being punched by Navindran.

That is all for Lee's version. Suddenly finish liao. HAHAHHAHAHA!!!

p.s. Apparently I am not being racist here lors what the commenter thinks about wor.... T___________T

***********

Ahh... recently so many this kinda thing happened around me, including me myself. Due to something happened on last Saturday, with my low IQ, EQ with my hypocrite characteristic begging for mercy and being asked to be one of the TVB actress (proud to have all these), I am totally completely utterly fully speechless. I have decided in my heart. What I should do and what I shouldn't in the future. Talk less and be less supportive and be less proactive and be more passive at certain environments.

I learned something from this incident. Telling the truth, telling true feelings to your good friend or anyone, it won't work, at all time. Again, different people has different version of stories and different point of view. Which one you choose? It doesn't matter. Things won't be going back as original as it is. Even though you have a "Back to the Past Machine".

"This story ends at 7.11 p.m. 29th June 2010."

Emotionally breakdown.

This morning. I woke up very early with full of doubts whether my best friend is going to be on time as how he mentioned to me yesterday. No longer best friend cause I guess he hates me so much right now or may be he hates me since decades ago I don't know. I always have that kinda feeling so I actually talked to him very carefully every time I talk to him.

And this morning, he was supposed to come to my house at 8 a.m. And my doubts and questions are all correct, he-is-going-to-be-very-late. I know that would happen but I still keep waiting and believe in myself that he will be here on time. Unfortunately, he didn't. From 7.30 a.m. I get everything well prepared and started to wait and wait and wait and wait until 9.30 a.m. Finally I cannot stand all the craps, and I burst.

You may think this is not a big deal cause most of the human late for everything. And that is one of the thing I hate the most. Rehearsal late. Dating late. Wait for people to finish their works or tests. Wait for people to go toilet. This late and that late.

So, while I was waiting apparently I was not in good mood and I cannot do my own things while I was waiting. And because of his late and it sacrificed my schedule for the entire week and probably I couldn't do well in my mid term test and also cannot finish my draft thesis on time for my supervisor.

Yes, thing that you might think that is only a little tiny things to you but it affects me that much. Because I always want thing to be completed and on the track.

However, due to many reasons people just cannot be punctual. 

He tried to explain to me he slept at 3 a.m. yesterday that is why he overslept this morning. And I wanted to throw my phone away because for me that was an excuse. He could have send me a message and tell me he'll be late or so, so that I won't be waiting blindly at home and send him message never reply and never pick up my phone call.

I know it is not his responsibility to treat me as good as my mother treats me so I didn't say anything to him.

But it is obviously he is now very not happy with my attitude. And I couldn't say anything as it is not his responsibility to treat me good. He didn't owe me anything. So, again I just shut up.

After the long story you have read I believe you know why I do not have much friends in my life.

Because if 1 friend I have to wait for 2 hours. 10 friends I have to wait for 20 hours.

My life isn't about waiting...

Those people are able to be so friend because they are all late person or able to spend their day waiting for their friends and I cannot.

I was very upset when he rejected to come to my house today with the reason that he is going to campus for work. I knew he hates me right now. But I can't do anything cause it isn't his fault. It was me who choose to believe he will be punctual and spent my 2 hours of waiting and another 3 hours to recover from my upsets.

I know that is not a responsibility for him to treat me good.

But it is not a responsibility for me to wait blindly too.





... and now he is able to finish all his to-do-list by today. Yet I'll have to postpone mine to an endless date.

Sheebai thing with sheebai people...

I am now in my genomic practical and crap happened.

Clement is looking at what I am typing so I am not going to continue now HAHAHAHAH!!!

Deng I overhead a lot people scold vulgar words due to the horrible and vegetable internet connection my univerisity has. They created the firewall on the wi-fi for rubbish's sake and I don't know what is the point.

Even in the computer lab we couldn't get online burh~~~ What is the purpose? We've a president graduated from MMU the so called Multimedia Univeristy and the wi-fi or whatever internet connection in our university makes the entire world scolds endless vulgar words.

It's time for lab now kthxbai.

small room with big dream...

i know i shouldn't. but this is always what i did.

i mean, self conversation. to make myself better or not, i don't know.

it doesn't seem helping me a lot but i doing that since i was born so for over 20 years i don't think i can change it by now but to make it a producing positive results.

lying on bed thinking so much of things and predicting the future things that is part of my life. and it normally take the whole day or at least half of the day.

there is no specific meaning for my photos so whatever you think it is then it is la kay. haha. and that is always what i think also. my prediction always goes correct. i know before i really go and talk to that person. i know we shouldn't be bias or what la but my first feeling towards that person by just seeing them (without need to talk to them) i already know they have brain in their head or taufu, or some other things. the sixth sense almost always correct.

now, i so feel like going ipoh but there is nothing in ipoh that makes me fancy because i am a city girl that immersed in the flower flower world of kuala lumpur. how good if kampar has subway.

next wednesday, courtesy of biological science society and another society's name that i am not so sure, i was being invited to be their emcee together with my vice chairman of src last time big jon and i know that night will be an awesome night.

as time goes and after four years i spent my precious teens in utar. three years of degree life with same geng of people and believe or not up to you. my bonding with them is the van der waals bond, which is, the weakest wan. i think one day if i die and suddenly disappear from utar they wouldn't know also. i thought i am quite good with one of them (is a guy) but just somehow when i realize there are so many updated things that i do not know, i doubted whether i am you know, exists. i am not blaming him la cause he has no responsibility on that i am just doubting. k. doubt. just wonder.

as for my blogging life. apparently i am not exist also. i really think i write better than many of them but their followers and traffics are way much higher than mine. it probably due to my socialization skill is an E to be existed in this world. next time after i die, i'll meet the angels or gods and they'll probably give something like this to me.

1. kindness - D
2. attitude - C
3. wealth - B+
4. socialization - E
5. number of friends in the human world - n/a

not to say about blogging sphere, but a lot of people just doesn't like me for no reason. i always think people doesn't like me because i am not able to sampat and do not have advanced back-stab knowledge.

this world is really full of bitch.

bitch is

• someone who thought the world is too peace
• someone who always touch your hands and share things with you in the public but stab your back in the private corner
• someone who deserves the oscar award
• someone who speaks in very high pitch in fronta guys
• someone who not necessarily being hated by people
• someone who sometimes very famous among the same species
• someone who i don't like (most of the time)

and i'd like to name them Canis lupus bitche.

but sometimes the world wouldn't be fun without Canis lupus bitche, weird isn't it?




p.s. the dream of mine i wouldn't say it out cause i guess many of you know wishes that you said it out will not come true wan. sien.

"hello, anybody hear me?"