Forgotten.

This is a super short entry.

It is not about me forgetting something or someone. Instead, I am the one who being forgotten by some other people. Like I no need loves and cares.

I am not a robot. He makes me feel like he is more suitable if categorized under single and available category. I know he really don't like whenever I blog about him. But I don't know whom to talk to. I am tired. I just don't wanna talk because I am tired already. It makes me feel like I am not expensive. You know, cheap. Like a prostitute giving out low price to get customers. I really think that way. I was like begging like beggar to see you. If I never be the first one who called you, we will probably did not meet for more than 48 hours (heart broken). I am those type who always will speak out if I have any dissatisfaction, but now I choose not to talk. I guess you know the level of severeness.

You will never know how happy I am whenever you appear on front of me.

I never wanna blame others. I still think it was my fault for all the things had happened. I am really sorry for causing you not happy, or whatsoever. But I cannot stand already. I always think I will die in my room lonely, without people realizing it.

May be I should think positively like, at least flies will know I die already and those fungus and mosses plasmodium slime mode or whatever saprophyte will come and digest my body wtf.

I need loves and cares, my friends.

Do you know that asking me whether I want to have lunch will really make my day bright?

Ever since I have my med check, I always think I am the odd ones. Like today, my physiology experiment, tested my urine. Everyone has basic or neutral and I am the only one have acidic urine even after I drank 700ml of water. What the hell is that?

My tongue, still painful after suffering for like 5 days. May be I'd lied too much.

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